Gues who's back. Back again.

I feel so lonely.
I've single-handedly managed to alienate everyone in my life.
I now truly, have nothing.
You want to know what it's like?
Imagine a world where you have nothing, people who you think are you friends but when the going gets tough, the tough get going.
Imagine a world where your family prefer it when you're not around, when your parents make sure you know they hate you, every single day.
Imagine a world where you don't talk to your own brothers and sisters because you've pushed them to far away to try and get them back.
Imagine a world where you've flunked school so bad you've got no chance of making something of yourself.

I GOT SOME'

Ok, I've thought of some, here they are:

• Try my hardest to help people who means something to me. Whenever they need me I'll be there and won't disappoint them with crappy advice

• Read 100 books, I got that from this website with things to do before you die ;)

• Lose weight, I really have to do it this time though, I need new clothes =P
  

Lets all bring in the new year with a cheer'

This post is a bit late, it being the 4th of January and all, but I can't think of any new years resolutions. 

I'm stuck on what I actually care about anymore, whether I should be bothered with making a list when I know I'm going to break them anyway.

Beginning of the end'

I'm more screwed up than you can imagine.
I think about things people don't think about.
I have a social anxiety disorder.
I self harm. You name it I've done it.
I can pretty much handle anything so people come to me for help even though I need the help more than they do.
Sometimes the only voice I hear is the one I need to run from.
Sometimes I'm the happiest person you'll meet but I still hate myself.
Sometimes I stop eating so I'll be pretty, but that's the problem.
Sometimes I want to help you understand me, but you don't care.